Hey there, Sweet Pea {6 weeks}

6 week sonogram
How far along: 6 weeks 5 days
Gender:  I am 100% positive this baby is a boy. I just know it.
Size of baby: A sweet pea! And how sweet it is! 
Maternity clothes: Nope, but I’m pinning some cute stuff for fall and winter! The plan is lots of aline skirts. 😉
Stretch marks: Not cause I’m pregnant
Belly button in or out: In. (Is it bad I hope it always stays that way? Does it have to pop??)
Sleep: I’m tired ALL THE TIME! Although getting up to pee 5+ times a night doesn’t help, but I legit love to sleep. I could get 10 hours and still grumble when my alarm goes off.
Best moment this week: We got to see sweet Spout’s heart beat this week! 126! I also got to spend time with my MawMaw for Memorial Day this past weekend. I love that woman more than anything on this Earth. She’s hoping Sprout is a boy. She’s the only one! I’m excited to have a son. I teared up over it today. Boys love their Mommas!
Worst moment this week: We laid to rest Ran’s great uncle Johnny this week. It was heartbreaking. He was such a wonderful man. Other awful things happened this week too, but I’m not getting into it. Moving on.
Miss anything: I could’ve gone for a sunrise or two this week! 😉
Movement: Nuttin.
Cravings: I go from ‘eh, I’m good.’ to “OMG I’M STARVING! Feed me now!” in about 3 seconds.  I really wanted pizza today, but I don’t think I was craving it. I was doing sequencing cards with the kids and a guy was making pizza and it made me really want it. I’ve been really loving cheez its to curb any icky stomach lately.
Queasy or sick: I’m pretty sure I have bronchitis or something of the sorts. The coughing made me throw up in the parking lot of the pizza place today. That was no fun. Between the coughing, the sneezing, and the body aches it’s been a bad couple of pregnant days. I’ll be glad when this ick gets lost!
Looking forward to: This weekend! EXTRA SLEEP! We’re going to see Maleficent tomorrow and my oldest niece Jodee has her sweet 16 on Saturday. It’ll be busy as usual, but I’m looking forward to it. And my best, Sam, is closing on her house tomorrow! So exciting and wonderful! I can’t wait to jump in there and help move and decorate! ❤

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And Alpha Mom says at 6 weeks:

Your baby:

  • Has tripled or even quadrupled in size and is now three or four entire millimeters long! Godzilla baby!
  • Is working on growing a nose, some ears and a mouth.
  • Is also growing flappy little leg and arm buds.
  • Has a heartbeat that can be seen on an ultrasound — 100 to 160 beats per minute.

You:

  • Are maybe moody as hell.
  • Are getting up in the middle of the night to pee.
  • Food cravings and/or aversions can be pretty strong at this point. If salad with a prenatal vitamin chaser makes your stomach flip and your esophagus burn, then for God’s sake skip the salad and eat something that sounds appealing, be it chicken nuggets or black olives straight out of the can. There’s no need to be the Healthy Salad Martyr Pregnant Woman, nobody likes her anyway.
  • Depending on the state of your digestive system and appetite, you may have gained a couple pounds already — or you may have lost weight. Don’t stress either way right now. It’ll probably all even out in the end.

5 week photos

We hit 6 weeks today. This pregnancy has been anything but comforting. With the spotting, the bleeding, the progestrone and every other issue we’ve ran into in such a short time I’ve been worried. I’ve been stressed. Given our history I feel like it’s justifiable. I don’t want to deal with anymore loss. I don’t want to have to say goodbye to this sweet miracle. After seeing our precious sprout on Tuesday everything has changed. I don’t care if I have this baby for 100 years or I spend only 1oo more days pregnant, I’ve waited too long to not enjoy it, to not celebrate it. This baby is ours no matter how long we have it. I’m not promised to be able to get pregnant again so I will make this pregnancy special. I will cherish every moment. I will capture everything I can, because I don’t want to forget any of it. It is a gift and I want to make the best of it. I won’t let worry and fear ruin it for me. I’ve been told by several people who knew I needed to hear it, God doesn’t give us a spirit of fear. I have a peace we’ll be bringing home this piece of Heaven in January and I will live every moment until this to the best of my ability.
I bought a dress the other night at Ross for $17. I love it. I decided I wanted to wear if for pregnancy photos, but I want to do them every 5 weeks so I can watch myself grow in the exact same outfit. These are the first in that set. We did them last night. Ran photographed them and I edited them when I got home. Hey, 5 weeks and 6 days is still 5 weeks. 😉 My next go around in this dress will be at 10 weeks.
After these I think I got my first taste of ‘morning sickness’. I’ve noticed at night when I sleep if I lay on my back or my right side my stomach gets a little upset and nervous feeling. I have no idea why, but yesterday during photos I made some stupid choice to lay down on the ground flat on my back and it opened the flood gates. Oh. My. Word! I felt dizzy, I felt nauseous, I got a headache, and none of it would go away. It was to the point where at home I way laying in bed begging Ran to get me Sprite and Cheeze Its, which he did. It lasted for almost 2 hours. I called a friend of mine and talked to her about it. I told her I felt like it was WAY too early to be feeling sick at all and I thought I’d have at least 3 or 4 more weeks before I dealt with anything like that. HA! 6 weeks. That’s when hers hit. And it lasted til 14 weeks. What??? Crap!

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Orange you glad everything is wonderful? {5 weeks}

How far along: 5 weeks 5 days
Gender:  I’m still thinking boy. We’ll know in about 12 weeks!
Size of baby: An orange seed! 
Maternity clothes: Momma went shopping this week! Not for maternity clothes but I did get plenty of dresses that will easily last until fall when I’m big!
Stretch marks: None from the sprout!
Belly button in or out: In.
Sleep: I fell asleep at 7 pm last night then woke up at 9:40 asking Ran why on Earth he was still up at such a late hour! lol I also fell asleep eating on Sunday. I’m hearing it’s the progesterone. Several of my friends said it made them tired too. It’s uncomfortable when I sleep though because of my back pain. That has nothing to do with the baby though.
Best moment this week: Gosh! Where to start! The highlight of the week was of course having our first sonogram and getting our first glance at our sweet little sprout! Also Ran had 2 job interviews this week and they seems to have gone wonderfully! This baby is gonna have a Daddy with a job! HA! Any school that snaps him up will be lucky to have him!
Worst moment this week: We ended up in the ER Friday night with heavy heavy bleeding. I was laying on the bed totally numb. I just couldn’t believe it. I knew I wouldn’t be going home with good news, but God is bigger than we are and His plans far exceed our own! My cervix was closed and my levels were staying high! Praise the Lord. Again, our prayer warriors have really come through for us this past week. We are so blessed to have such amazing people supporting us!
Miss anything: Not a thing!
Movement: Nothing, obviously.
Cravings: It’s not a craving, but I miss eating whatever I want. I had Olive Garden this week and I don’t regret it at all! I haven’t felt full in a while and it was nice to stuff myself a bit while I can!
Queasy or sick: Much better this week! I haven’t noticed much of anything!
Looking forward to: Every moment of this pregnancy. Laying my eyes on that sweet baby hit me with a realization. I don’t care if I have this baby for 100 more days or 100 more years, I am going to enjoy every moment of this pregnancy. I am going to make it special and I am going to capture everything I can. I’ve waited so long for this and I’m not promised to  ever experience it again. I want to remember everything. I bought a beautiful dress last night and I plan on being photographed in it every month of our pregnancy so I can watch my body evolve as this sweet miracle does. I will treasure this time in my life. ❤ 

 

 

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Alpha Mom says at 5 weeks:

Your baby:

  • Is about the size of a sesame seed.
  • Looks more like a tadpole than a human-variety baby.
  • Making developmental leaps and bounds by the hour like a damned GENIUS CHILD.

You:

  • Are totally for-real pregnant, with a positive home pregnancy test to prove it and everything.
  • Are definitely popping a prenatal vitamin everyday — you can pick them up at any grocery store or vitamin shop. Your doctor can also write you a prescription, but if your insurance doesn’t cover them it’s perfectly fine to buy them off the shelf.
  • If you don’t FEEL very pregnant yet, don’t panic. It’s early. Breast tenderness and fatigue may be all you’ve got at this point.
  • Oh, and yes, it is time to stop smoking, drinking, doing drugs and licking inner-city mailboxes, if you’re into that sort of thing.

Our First Sonogram

Oh my gosh! I’m pretty sure when people say they are high on life they mean they feel exactly like I do right now. I am GUSHING! Yesterday we went to the doctor for yet another level check and since my levels on Friday were over 5,800 he told me I could come in today for a sonogram. We were going to wait another week be he told us to come on in. Today dragged by so slowly! I was going to get to meet my bean! I’ve been a nervous wreck all day. Today I was going to get my first glance at the most important person in my life. Today I’d meet my soulmate for the first time. It was just as precious as I thought it would be. We were taken right back. Our sonogram last Monday showed nothing. Literally not a thing so I my stomach was in knots with no expectation of what I may see when she turned around that screen. But when she turned it around, there it was! She showed us our gestational sac and our yolk sac and at the bottom of the yolk sac was the teeniest tiniest little smidgen you ever did see. A little wiggly smudge. My precious little smudge. My breath caught and my heart stopped. My baby. My perfect baby.
She said we were still really early so she didn’t expect to see a heartbeat yet. I’m measuring 6 weeks and 1 day but she’s thinking we’re closer to 5 weeks and 5 days. We go back in 1 week to see the heartbeat. My levels Friday were 5834. Today they were over 15,000! Amazing news!!
Holding this photo I’ve never felt more special. I have been entrusted to care for and protect the most perfect gift that has ever been given. Seeing this baby just sealed it in for me. Every thing is worth it. Every tear, every worry, every hiccup along the way. It’s worth it. I have physical proof my baby is alive and well. Wow. I never knew how intense that would feel for me. I am so in love with this sweet baby already. More in love than I have ever been in my life. Our parents are quite smitten as well. This child is already spoiled!

Our due date is around January 15th, 2015! Come on, baby! We’re ready to meet you already! How are we going to make it 35 more weeks?! My sweet sweet baby sprout!

Oh baby, do you know how loved you are? Do you know how much we want you? You are everything. You are my everything. ❤

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Our First Week

And what a LONG week it has been! One week ago I saw two lines and nothing in my life has been the same since.

I think when you go into pregnancy after a loss or after infertility, you go into it in a different way. A way people who haven’t dealt with those things can’t fully understand. Every hiccup in the road is a big deal. Every feeling could be a ‘symptom’. Yes, it may be too early, but you are just hanging on with everything you’ve got to this life you’ve been given. I admire those who don’t have to panic at every cramp. I’m jealous of them to be honest. A post today on FB really bothered me. Who’s to say how other’s should feel when they’re pregnant just because it’s different than you. You don’t know what they’ve been though. You don’t know their past, and you don’t know how long they have this baby to treasure. Let them have it. Let them do what they need to do or feel how they need to feel. If it doesn’t affect you, it’s probably none of your business anyway.

My kids at school have enjoyed asking me about the baby ‘in my belly’ (one of them says). What am I going to name it? When is it going to get here? Can I kiss it? Will it play with us? I love those kids like they were my own. They are the joy of my life and I am grateful for them every single day. My job is the best in the world. It truly is. I have 11 little blessings to love every day. Their parents are amazing as well. They’ve all been so supportive of our pregnancy and always so quick to check on me. They are precious. I don’t know how people do it without so much support around them.

I started cramping and spotting on Thursday. I was at work and when I saw it I literally ran down the hallway shaking and into the arms of my director. I just sobbed. I knew it was too good to be true. Here it was. My baby was leaving me. My dream was over. I called the doctor and they got me in as soon as possible. I walked around work just shaking. I couldn’t concentrate, I couldn’t function. Ran came and picked me up and we just tried to pass the time until the appointment. Dr. J came in 5 mins early from lunch and took me straight back. He said the spotting could be nothing or it could be the setting up of a miscarriage. He put us on progesterone and did more blood work. Tiana (my amazing and precious nurse) promised me she’d call as soon as she got the results. When I went home it just seemed easier to sleep than to dwell on what was happening. Ran turned on Alice in Wonderland and I slept on and off for 14 hours. The next morning I just laid in bed until the phone rang. Tiana was on the other line and told me my levels looked good and were rising and we were in the clear for the time being. My levels went from 2403 to 3915 from Monday to Thursday. I wept. My baby was okay. I was so relieved! We were okay! WE WERE OKAY! Prayers were poured out all over this baby and we were going to be okay!
I spent the rest of the day walking on air. We walked around and went shopping and life was good. We had to go by Office Max to get some ink and folders for Ran’s resumes. While we were there I got dizzy and sick feeling. I just figured I got over heated or something. I went and sat in the car and waited for Ran to cash out. I fell asleep on the way home which was very unlike me. I figured out it’s something that happens when you’re on progesterone. Just a part of it. I sat in the living room for a while when I got home and when I got up to go to the restroom there was blood. Much more than before. Again I panicked. The doctor’s office was closed and when Ran called the after hours number they told us to get to the ER. We met his parents there and we waited on them to take me back. Once I got settled into a ‘room’ they tried to take blood and once again it proved very difficult. They ended up running an IV in my wrist. It was SO painful. They check my levels again.We waited and waited and waited. I felt myself shut down. I just got numb. I wanted to be anywhere else. I wanted to not have these worries. I wanted to feel normal and I wanted to feel like I could protect my child. Obviously I was already doing a horrible job at it. After a while Ran laid his head on my arm and began to sing “You are my sunshine” softly and quietly while rubbing my stomach. We both wanted this baby so badly. Every moment we were celebrating this child. I just wept silently. We were there about 3 hours and my NP came back with my levels. 5834! They rose! A lot! There was hope! She checked my cervix which was awfully uncomfortable and praise God it was closed. This baby is holding on. We’re fighting. We’re going to get through this.

Everything someone else may find normal, fills me with dread. I hope I don’t feel this way for the next 9 months, but I just want this baby here. In my arms. Our levels looks so so good I think! We go have them checked again on Monday. At this rate I doubt I’ll have any blood left, but it’s worth it. It stinks having such crappy veins with only like 2 (less desirable) options to use.

Went we were out shopping on Friday before the scare, I found the worlds most perfect glider at Target. It looks like a regular chair. It’s gray with lighter gray piping and it swivels. Something I can see my child playing on for years to come. I also got some cute journaling cards for the pregnancy smash book I’m starting on. I’m excited to fill it up with memories of this amazing time. I really think this baby is a boy. I really really do. My mom really wants a girl. So does Ran. But I just know it’s not. I’ve been looking over boy nurseries since I have no idea what I even like when it comes to boys (I’ve always planned for a girl) and I’m really loving some Where the Wild Things Are right now. It’s my kids’ favorite book at school and we read it all the time. I wanted to do something based on children’s literature and I feel like that’s something he could grow with for a while. Who knows. We have more than enough time to plan. Being in the dreaming stage where everything is a possibility is a great place to be though.

Ran has lost his mind. lol Not really but daddy mode sure does suit him. He doesn’t want me lifting a finger which drives me mad. I don’t like to slow down. I don’t like being told I can’t do things. It’s not me. I don’t just sit around and rest. I don’t know how. I like to be busy, else I feel lazy. Every night he tucks me in then makes my lunch for work. He packs a huge lunchbox and a walmart bag full of stuff so I can pick and choose what I want. Karla makes fun of me that instead of eating a full meal I just ‘graze’. A little of this and a little of that. It’s really been working out for me though. I get fuller faster and I only eat when I’m hungry. I think I’ve lost a little weight and the doctor says that’s fine as long as I’m losing weight from being healthy. I’ve cut out so much. The only sweets I get is fruit and yogurt. The last 2 days I’ve treated myself to 32 degress froyo. Not the best but I fill it up with nuts and fruit. It could be much worse. I’m all about squash. I eat it for every meal. Green beans too. I don’t miss anything. I’m not a fan of meat right now. Maybe it’s a texture thing? I just really have to be in the mood for it. I haven’t had any bread or pasta. Dr. J told me to follow a diabetic diet and I’m doing my best. We’re doing a sugar test at 20 weeks and I’d love it to come back with flying colors. I’d also really like to drop some pounds here at the beginning. I never wanted to get pregnant this big. I never expected to. It’s not ideal but that doesn’t mean I can’t at least try to fix it. I selfishly want the easiest labor possible and getting healthier is going to be the easiest way to assist in that. We’re looking for a gym with a pool. The doctor said that was the best exercise for pregnancy and you don’t have to tell me that twice. I love to swim. I’d also love to try some yoga. I’m so stiff. I saw the chiropractor this week and he told me he wasn’t surprised that we were pregnant. He said he thought about me about a month ago and said to himself “She’s pregnant”. I thought that was really cool! He really helped my back too. I’m going to try to go about once a week or once every two weeks. I hear it’s great for pregnancy and it also helps with labor.

Over all it’s been the most stressful week of my life, but it’s kicked off the most amazing adventure we’ll ever have. I open this myself to this journey with open arms. The good the bad the ugly, I’m ready. I want to experience every minute. I am so blessed.

Sweet baby,
Oh you. You are a tricky little thing. Don’t you know you aren’t suppose to pay me back for my dramatic raising till after you get here? You’re about 8 months too early. Thanks. It’s okay. All the worry, the stress, every tear is worth it. You are worth it. Every moment my thoughts are filled with you. What will you be like? What will we be like as parents? How I’m going to make it through the next 8 months without you here is beyond me. We already love you so much. You have so many people surrounding your life with love. You are such a lucky little lovey. Your daddy is already crazy over you. Literally crazy. He tried to get me to use an electric wheelchair at the grocery store today so I wouldn’t be on my feet. Ha! That’s just not Mommy’s style. I know I’m suppose to rest, but I get bored way too easily. I have a feeling you will too. I like to stay busy. You need to let me be busy. I’ve got a lot to do before you get here. Oh but when you get here! I promise I’ll slow down. I promise I will hold you and just breathe you in. I promise there will be peace and there will be love. I promise you will be the most adored baby there ever was. You are wonderful. I just know it. I love you, baby. You are the best thing about me.

I love you more than life,
Mom

Our little Poppy Seed {4 weeks}

How far along: 4 Weeks (we assume!)
Gender:  No idea, but my guess is a sweet baby boy!
Size of baby: A sweet little poppy seed! 
Maternity clothes: Of course none at the moment but I’m already loving my maxi skirts as I’m not a fan of any pressure on my stomach.
Stretch marks: I’ve already got them just from being a thick girl, but obviously none from BJ. Ran wants to go ahead and get stretch mark cream and start now. He’s way more on top of this stuff than I am.
Belly button in or out: In.
Sleep: Eh. I was exhausted now I just lay in bed for hours. It’s getting a little better. I’m forcing myself to go to bed when I get tired and then I force myself up. I’m hoping eventually I can get back to my lovely 8 hours instead of this silly 6. I love to sleep!
Best moment this week: Confirming the pregnancy with the doctor after 4 HPT! Just hearing him say it was such a relief! We also announced it to our families and friends. I didn’t want to because it is SO early, but I’m not sure Ran or our families would have held out much longer. The outpouring of love and support has been overwhelming! We are surrounded by such amazing people! And we’ve got an army of prayer warriors interceding for this baby and that makes me so happy!
Worst moment this week: We didn’t know when my last cycle was so Dr. J did a sonogram and it was of course empty. He kept reassuring me everything is fine and it is way too early to see anything but that empty sono was unnerving to me. Everyone has told me it’s all fine and perfectly normal. It’s still a pit in the stomach feeling. I’m ready for Friday for my next beta to check my numbers. I just want them to skyrocket. Prayers they do!
Miss anything: Sleep. Other than that, no a dang thing! I’m dancing on air!
Movement: Nothing, obviously, except for a nervous stomach.
Cravings: I’ve been eating a lot of fruit but I wouldn’t call it a craving. Basically fruit and fried squash is my go to food right now. lol! I’ve been trying to cut out sugars and junk and so far I’m doing really well! I’m quite proud. I have no desire to eat junk. What ever I have to do for this baby, you know?
Queasy or sick: I have to eat small things as I’m hungry. Grazing if you will. I eat several different things but only a little of each. If I eat too much of one thing I’ll gag and then I’m just done.
Looking forward to: Feeling some sense of relief with this pregnancy. I just want to know everything is going to be okay! I want to know this little poppy seed is fine and developing!

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Alpha Mom says at week 4:

Your baby is:

 

  • Implanted snugly in the rich lining of your delicious uterus.
  • Still less than a millimeter long.
  • Seriously, a MILLIMETER. Go pull out a ruler and wrap your mind around that.
  • I will wait.
  • Okay, that little millimeter is growing three different cell layers already — the ectoderm, endoderm and mesoderm.
  • In case you FOR SOME REASON don’t remember high school biology class (shame!), those are the earliest beginning of your baby’s nervous system, hair, skin, gastrointestinal tract, pancreas, liver, thyroid, skeleton, blood system, connective tissue, urogenital system and muscles. Oh, IS THAT ALL?

 

You are:

 

  • Probably wondering where your period is.
  • Beating the hell out of your boobs to see if they’re sore.
  • Peeing on sticks, possibly cursing out sticks.

Our first Doctors Visit

Monday May 12 we got to go in to confirm our pregnancy with our new OB doctor. We’ve chosen to go with Dr. Johansson who is our newest OB in the area. We couldn’t be more thrilled with our decision! He is wonderful as is his fabulous staff! He is natural birth friendly and he’s believes fall right in line with our ever evolving birth plan. We filled out paperwork and really didn’t have to wait that long considering I called for an appointment that morning. We sat down with him and he talked about the 5 keys to a healthy pregnancy. He was so happy we were finally there to see him for us, not to go with someone else. Since I assumed my last cycle was in March they did a sonogram. It was empty which scared me to death! He said it was totally normal and that we were just much earlier than we thought. Closer to 4 weeks instead of 6. It really did unnerve me. I expected a spot. Just a spot, but not yet. This is a new kind of patience I’m learning. I just want to know my sweet baby is safe and everything is okay. We go back on Friday for more bloodwork to check my levels and then when the results come in we’ll be going back in 2 weeks for another sonogram then 4 weeks to see Dr. J again.

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We ate out afterwards at Yume and it’s the most food I’ve been able to eat at one time in days. It was really nice. On our way home I announced our pregnancy on facebook since my family apparently couldn’t wait any longer and the outpouring of support and love was overwhelming. I just couldn’t believe it. I sat there and read every message and cried and cried and cried. What a gift we have in our friends and families. We are BLESSED to have so many people rooting for us and this baby. And more importantly so many people praying!  Thank you thank you thank you!

Hello Baby!

The story of you. It’s going to be desperately beautiful. It just has to be. We fought so hard and waited so long to get here and here you are. I simply can’t believe it. I can’t believe it’s our time!

10 days ago I went to the ER for horrible pain in my back that was spreading around to my stomach. Pain like I’ve never felt before. They diagnosed me with kidney stones. They asked me several times if I was pregnant and I told them I didn’t know but that I doubted it. I mean next month makes 4 years since we’ve been on this journey. They gave me diludid and sent me home with pain killers. The stones passed (after much vomiting and pain) and the next day I watched Ran walk across JSU’s field and close a 10 year chapter of his life. I’m so proud of him for graduating collage. He’s worked so hard and he finally made it!

Here we are 10 days later and the world has flipped upside down. I went to my grandmother’s yesterday for an early mother’s day with Mom and Teresa. Friday night my boobs hurt so badly I couldn’t sleep. I had to take a pain pill in order to rest. It felt like someone was running needles into my nipples. Ugh. I told Aunt Teresa about it Saturday and she told me I should take a test. Josh said since I was planning on starting Adipex on Monday that I needed to be sure since I still hadn’t started. I shrugged it off but I told Ran on the car ride home to pick up a test. I knew it would be negative but it would give me peace of mind and hopefully start my cycle. Well, it wasn’t negative. In fact those two lines showed up in less than 30 seconds! I couldn’t believe it! Shocked is not the word! I just screamed and cried! I didn’t know what to do. RJ ran to the bathroom asking what was wrong and I kept screaming “There’s 2! There’s 2!” He read the instruction booklet at least 3 times. We were both trying to hard to let it sink in!

I called my  mom right away. I was still crying. She asked me what was wrong and I told her I hadn’t gotten to give her one of her Mother’s Day presents. She said that was okay and asked me if I’d just forgotten it. I told her no, I just didn’t know about it when I saw her. She was thrilled to hear we were going to have a baby when I told her! She said she was ready to start buying baby stuff and that she’d waited so long for this!

We debated on if we were going to wait until Mother’s Day to tell Ran’s family as a surprise, but we decided we couldn’t wait and we had to tell them that night. I had 100 different ways planned before to tell them we were pregnant but it all just kind of went right out the window in the rush of it all. We went to Target and grabbed a pair of sweet little newborn shoes and a Mother’s Day card that said To A Wonderful Mom and Grandma. We gave her the card first. “No you’re not!” were the first words out of her mouth that night. She cried and cried. We all did. 🙂 Then we all drove to his Grandmother’s house (at 8 pm!) and I sat on her couch and said “Tomorrow is Mother’s Day and I don’t really like holidays that don’t include me so I decided this year I’m going to be included.” She said, Okay then leaned down and hugged me. At least 10 seconds later she jumped back and yelled “YOU’RE PREGNANT!” Haha! Yes we are! Cue the waterworks yet again! It was such an amazing moment. Before we left we stood around in a circle and prayed over this baby, for it’s safety and thanking the Lord for this blessing. I prayed this baby would be born to have an amazing testimony. That he or she would live a life of importance and all the glory would be to God.

Oh, baby,
Please don’t even doubt the love you have surrounding you. Please don’t doubt how much you were wanted, longed for, and prayed for. Just when we thought our lives would be good enough alone, you show up and turn us upside down! We are so excited for you! We are excited for this pregnancy, your birth, and your life. You are going to do great things! You are going to be an amazing little person! We can’t wait to meet you and to watch you grow. Thank you for coming to us. You have no idea how long we’ve waited for this. Words will never express how much we love you already! 


Mom