5 week photos

We hit 6 weeks today. This pregnancy has been anything but comforting. With the spotting, the bleeding, the progestrone and every other issue we’ve ran into in such a short time I’ve been worried. I’ve been stressed. Given our history I feel like it’s justifiable. I don’t want to deal with anymore loss. I don’t want to have to say goodbye to this sweet miracle. After seeing our precious sprout on Tuesday everything has changed. I don’t care if I have this baby for 100 years or I spend only 1oo more days pregnant, I’ve waited too long to not enjoy it, to not celebrate it. This baby is ours no matter how long we have it. I’m not promised to be able to get pregnant again so I will make this pregnancy special. I will cherish every moment. I will capture everything I can, because I don’t want to forget any of it. It is a gift and I want to make the best of it. I won’t let worry and fear ruin it for me. I’ve been told by several people who knew I needed to hear it, God doesn’t give us a spirit of fear. I have a peace we’ll be bringing home this piece of Heaven in January and I will live every moment until this to the best of my ability.
I bought a dress the other night at Ross for $17. I love it. I decided I wanted to wear if for pregnancy photos, but I want to do them every 5 weeks so I can watch myself grow in the exact same outfit. These are the first in that set. We did them last night. Ran photographed them and I edited them when I got home. Hey, 5 weeks and 6 days is still 5 weeks. 😉 My next go around in this dress will be at 10 weeks.
After these I think I got my first taste of ‘morning sickness’. I’ve noticed at night when I sleep if I lay on my back or my right side my stomach gets a little upset and nervous feeling. I have no idea why, but yesterday during photos I made some stupid choice to lay down on the ground flat on my back and it opened the flood gates. Oh. My. Word! I felt dizzy, I felt nauseous, I got a headache, and none of it would go away. It was to the point where at home I way laying in bed begging Ran to get me Sprite and Cheeze Its, which he did. It lasted for almost 2 hours. I called a friend of mine and talked to her about it. I told her I felt like it was WAY too early to be feeling sick at all and I thought I’d have at least 3 or 4 more weeks before I dealt with anything like that. HA! 6 weeks. That’s when hers hit. And it lasted til 14 weeks. What??? Crap!